Dealing with one's own imperfections

 

The whole creation is made up of nature (prakriti) and the distortion of nature (vikriti). Anger and jealousy are not our nature – they are distortions of our nature. They are part of this creation, but we still call them distortions because they do not allow the Self to shine forth fully. 


So too with sin. Sin is not your nature, and you are not born out of sin. Sin is just the wrinkle on a cloth. It needs proper ironing! Lust is considered a sin because in lust, you treat the other person like an object. In love, you see the person as someone higher. Anger is a sin because when you are angry, you lose your centre; you lose sight of the Self. In guilt, you limit the small mind to an action that has already happened. 


Be thankful for the qualities you have been bestowed with because they are not of your own making. These qualities depend on the part that you have been given to play. When you understand this basic truth, then your inner perfection becomes stable. 


Some psychologists say, “Deep inside you, there is fear, guilt and anger.” These psychologists know nothing about the mind or consciousness! I tell you, deep inside, you are a fountain of bliss… a fountain of joy! Jesus got angry twice – He threw people out of a church, and shouted in anger. Krishna once broke His own promise – He vowed, He would not take up a weapon during the Mahabharata war, but when it became impossible to conquer Bhishma, He picked up His weapon, the Sudarshan Chakra. 


The peak of every emotion, every sensation, leads you to blossoming; leads you to innermost perfection. Don’t just look for perfection in actions. You name any action, and I’ll show you that there is a flaw in that action! Even when you give alms or charity, you are lowering the self-respect of the receiver. However, perfection in feeling is possible. Perfection in speech is possible to a great extent. Perfection in action is also possible to a greater extent.


Even if vikritis come your way, don’t give them too much importance for they are like wrinkles on a cloth. If you give importance to somebody’s anger, greed, or lust, then these are no longer only in them, for at some point of time, they take a permanent place in your mind. For e.g., an animal has sex, but after that, it doesn’t think about sex, until the next mating season. However, once man has sex, he keeps on thinking about it in his mind! This is what Krishna says in the Gita on several occasions: “What has happened to your mind?” If you nourish the vikara inside you, it changes from one impurity to another, and keeps multiplying inside you. Relax, and know that you are not the doer. See this whole thing as a drama –  that is the only way you can remain in your centre.

The purpose of imperfection

 

In a perfect world, why is man so imperfect? This is so that you can become more perfect! The recognition of imperfections leads you to more perfection. This is a very delicate point. If you recognize imperfection, you may just sulk and brood over it – “Oh! I am imperfect, imperfect and imperfect.” Recognize the imperfection in you and overcome it, by seeing more perfection.

 

You have heard before that all is God and all is love – then what is the purpose of life? If everything is God, then where is life headed? Life is heading towards perfection! Isn’t it? We want perfection, and there are three kinds of perfection:

Perfection in action or work (kriya)

Perfection in speech (vachan)

Perfection in feelings or intention (bhaav)

 

Some people may be very good in their actions, but inside, they feel very grumpy and angry. Some may lie; their speech is not perfect, but they do their job right, or they feel right. A doctor may tell a patient, “Don’t worry! Your disease will be cured,” though that may not be true. At times, the intention behind lying is perfect. For e.g., a child asks his mother, where his baby brother came from, and the mother replies that she bought the baby! The mother’s intention behind lying is perfect. If someone lies intentionally, the feeling is imperfect, the speech is imperfect and so the action will reflect the same.

 

Suppose someone makes a mistake and you get angry, looking at that mistake, then, you are no better than the person, who made the mistake because there the action was imperfect, but here your feelings have become imperfect! Any action will have some flaw, but when feelings become imperfect, they stay for a longer period. The innermost perfection is lost.


Many people, who fight for human rights, are fighting for a cause, but they get angry inside, and anger is as bad as lust; jealousy is no better than anger. Amongst the six imperfections – lust, anger, greed, entanglement, arrogance and jealousy – you think one is “better” than another, but they are not.

 

Spiritual practice (sadhana) helps you maintain your centeredness and not be shaken by small events. When someone screams at you, his or her speech is imperfect, but don’t assume that his or her feelings are also imperfect. Don’t see an intention behind other people’s mistakes as that brings more impurity to the mind; this is also “vikara” or distortion.